In other words, please be true.

After such a long time, I feel so confused yet again. No, it's not about my love life, and I doubt such thing ever exists. But if there is, it's too petty a reason for such immense confusion.

Burn-out. Disappointment. Pressure. Uncertainty. And longing. Especially longing.

I've been running errands for a certain project, and it's burning me out. I am disappointed in the way things have been going, and by the way I myself am handling things and my emotions. I am so pressured, maybe because I don't want to have things half-baked. And now I am uncertain with my capabilities, with the way I've been handling myself, and with the relationships I've had. And I long for security, for a friend to cry on 'cause right now I am breaking down in a big way that I am getting goosebumps.

I miss the security that comes with certainty. I miss the once-nurturing atmosphere. I long for them.

Actually, the past few days was fun. Watching a feel-good Koreanovela over the long weekend really made me giddy all-day today. This is the first time that I've actually found a Korean boy too charming! He can sing, he models, he acts, he speaks English decently, and he plays the piano! He can pull off long gay-ish hair, black eye-liner, and super tight jeans! His smile is just too cute! Plus, he can cook! COOK(Well, so my sister says, all boys in Korea now how to cook daw)! I melt every time. WTH. Pardon me. 

And I've been excited about HP7 too. 

But tonight. I dunno. Tonight's waaaay different. It's just... depressing.