Gravity Falling

Last night was one of the most tiring and stressful nights of my life. Too many songs will qualify for last night's soundtrack. Here are some of them: Sara Bareilles' Gravity as covered by Jill and Dundee, John Mayer's Gravity as covered by Silim.

But there was this one song that definitely gives a good feel to last night's memories. The queer thing about this is that I wasn't able to hear Teacher Micah (my adviser) and her best friend perform this song live last night (maybe I was busy doing some arrangements outside). Luckily, some orgmates were kind enough to record their performance and post it online. It was magical. Their version here. The song's by Brooke Fraser, entitled Deciphering Me :)

Your telescope eyes see everything clearly

My vision is blurred but I know what I heard echoing all around

While I am tuning you in, you are deciphering me

Not such a mystery, not such a faint in a far away sound

In other words, please be true.

After such a long time, I feel so confused yet again. No, it's not about my love life, and I doubt such thing ever exists. But if there is, it's too petty a reason for such immense confusion.

Burn-out. Disappointment. Pressure. Uncertainty. And longing. Especially longing.

I've been running errands for a certain project, and it's burning me out. I am disappointed in the way things have been going, and by the way I myself am handling things and my emotions. I am so pressured, maybe because I don't want to have things half-baked. And now I am uncertain with my capabilities, with the way I've been handling myself, and with the relationships I've had. And I long for security, for a friend to cry on 'cause right now I am breaking down in a big way that I am getting goosebumps.

I miss the security that comes with certainty. I miss the once-nurturing atmosphere. I long for them.

Actually, the past few days was fun. Watching a feel-good Koreanovela over the long weekend really made me giddy all-day today. This is the first time that I've actually found a Korean boy too charming! He can sing, he models, he acts, he speaks English decently, and he plays the piano! He can pull off long gay-ish hair, black eye-liner, and super tight jeans! His smile is just too cute! Plus, he can cook! COOK(Well, so my sister says, all boys in Korea now how to cook daw)! I melt every time. WTH. Pardon me. 

And I've been excited about HP7 too. 

But tonight. I dunno. Tonight's waaaay different. It's just... depressing.

Smile and Look Alive

The hardest thing is rendering a moment moving too fast to endure
But you abide and smile wide cause I want to remember this for sure...


A picture says with sight what we can't say with words.