These Moments Make You Missed

There are those people you never get tired of, even though you see them everyday. Best example? My high school barkada. After sharing recess, lunch, at dismissal everyday during high school, and then being away from each other for so long after graduation, now is one of those times I badly want to be with them. Maybe it's because I am craving for Pinoy movies, which we all enjoy--even if it's so corny and absurd at some point. Well, I rarely have problems or any worries on being alone and spending time by and with myself. It's just that, now's one of those times that I want to burst and I know the only people who can really really understand, or at least who can help me laugh or lose myself in the vagueness of everything, is well, them.

So, in memory of our Pinoy film cravings, and of my first ever celebrity crush, Rico Yan...

Toni: Pinuntahan kita sa bahay mo. Linunok ko ang pride ko. Tinanong kita. Bakit ngayon lang?
Lorenz: Parang mukhang tanga e. Naisip ko, anong mukhang ihaharap ko sa’yo at kay Perry?
Toni: Wag mo akong bigyan ng kabulshitang sagot! Marami akong trabaho, inuubos mo oras ko! The least I expect bigyan mo ako ng sagot hindi galing jan kundi galing dito!
Lorenz: Nagago ako. Naduwag ako..
Toni: Bakit?
Lorenz: Because it’s true. Toni, I almost lost you..dahil gago ako’t duwag. Natakot akong mahalin ka.
Toni: At ngayon?
Lorenz: Ngayon mas natatakot akong mawala ka.
Toni: Bakit mo ko mahal?
Lorenz: Hindi ko alam.
Toni: Hindi mo alam?!
Lorenz: Hindi ko alam. It just hit me. I didn’t even believe in forever, Toni. But I think I found forever in you. Toni…Hindi ko pinagpipilitan ang sarili ko sayo ok? Wag mong isipin yon. Gusto ko lang malaman mo. Gusto ko lang malaman mo na mahal kita. And I’m so sorry.
Toni: You never say sorry for loving someone. You never say sorry for loving me.

Waaa. Rico Yan - Claudine Barretto love team!

Bring more popcorn! Next film, One More Chance :'(

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Well, today was great anyway. Shoot for Ji's debut + pares + Starbucks ain't bad at all. Bad vibes? Skin allergy. Thanks to some re-shoot yesterday :|

Fears are Far Behind You

Peta na!

I'm Sorry

Frustration comes
From the realization
Of how
Pointless
The effort was.
Not good.
But we just have to accept
That no matter how much we can give
No matter how much we want it all to work out
Sometimes we just all
BURNOUT.

What Have We Here?

Some FA Majors put up some installation art at the Sunken Garden last Friday. White, dark blue, and light blue balloons were artfully planted on the already-dry field. It was such a thrill to see the balloons bend altogether when the breeze came. They called their art "Sea".

It was beautiful. Perfect photo op! Too bad we came late that afternoon to find people taking heaps of balloons from the ground, collecting, and then heading off. The field was left looking quite scathed. Had to make most of what was left anyway.

Desensitization

There is pain
But there is will.
You stand and
Endure the pain
Until you no longer feel.

But then here comes another trigger,
Another shot,
And once again,
You feel.

And you realize you're just going 'round
In       c
  i               
r                  s
  c           e
          l

You
Try again

An Island and I Passed You By

Yesterday's bad vibes:

• Falling asleep while doing the child portfolio for FLCD 122
• Missing FN 110, which is my only class for the day
• Si ate girl pinapaasa nanaman si kuya. Si kuya naman kinilig. Di niya alam, masasaktan lang siya. ATE GIRL KASI! Tsktsk.
  
• Cancelled TK night with Circlers, Asher, and Ben
  

Not-so-good-and-yet-not-so-bad vibes:

• Si Ningning Bituin bla bla bla
• Jeep to SM North
• Seph hording the mic at RedBox
  
• Falling asleep on the way home, missing my stop
• Not much photos
• No Plan B for the night... So I just went home and slept

Idiot vibes

• Looking for movies to watch till 1 in the morning, therefore starting my portfolio, well, on the day of its deadline

Good vibes

• The Last Kiss
• Kids' wit
• The rain poured down :)
• Finished and passed 122 Portfolio :D
  
• TriNoma with Circlers and Asher
• YellowCab pizza & pasta c/o Seph
• Red Mango
• TIMEZOOOONE
• Excited to watch Remember Me

Tick Tock

There goes my time.
I am unconsciously
Letting it
Slip
A
w
a
y

WAKE UP! PUSH!

Had a big day today. Run plus HLT. After a day with people cheering for me, or complementing whatever I've done for today, I come to realize that deep inside I must probably be so egoistic. Why do what I did today? Hm? I shall be sleeping now, but since I have so much in mind...

What is your motivation?
Their expectations?
Or your insecurity?
Or your expectations
Of your own self?
Or do they all come
Hand in hand in hand?
Like a triangle?
Linked
Almost inextricable
From the others
Or are they?

Why do we behave the way we do? What motivates us? What motivates you? And what are your intentions?

A! The things words can do to youuuuu. A hug would do better.

And as he spoke, he spoke ordinary words
Although they did not feel
For I felt what I had not felt before
And you'd swear those words could heal.

But then again :|


Ian, you're just probably in need of sleep. After telling yourself "wake up!" and "push!" most times today, your sleep-deprived and complaining body is in dire need of rest.

A, self-centralization again! GRR. G'night, body. Haha.

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Naiwan ko yung telepono ko sa bahay ngayon. Di ko naman sinasadya. Nagmamadali kasi ako. Pero. Ang saya nang walang inaatupag na telepono. Parang, ah, kalayaan! Haha.

Mag-isa akong nag-jogging kanina. Dapat kasi kasama ko si Seph, e patalo. Haha. Okay lang. Nakita ko si Kalaw at si Desa sa may Quezon Hall at sinabayan ko sila hanggang sa may Engg. Tas tuluy-tuloy ko na.

Iba rin 'pag mag-isa ka :) 'Pag sinabi mo sa sarili mong magdudugo na ata ilong ko, walang nagpapanic. Kasi sanay ka na. Parang kahapon lang, Paul, yung pinto, yung kamay ko. Paul. Paki-bukas yung pinto. Naipit na kamay mo nun sa pinto ng taxi diba? Haha chill kung chill.

Lesson of the day: Kuya, ate, tumingin kasi sa likuran. Sayang o. Nasa likod niyo lang mga hinahanap-hanap ni'yo e. Puro kasi lingon sa kanan si kuya. Si 'te naman kaliwa. Tsk.

O well. Gusto ko lang ikwento.