Ideal

Nahanap ko na e.
Ang problema, hindi ko maabot.
Hindi ko makuha.

So ano lang 'yon? Pattern? Standard?

Haha. Pangarap?

Closer, Flicker in Flight

Numb

So they say

She is

Numb

She thinks

She is

Analyzing

And now, even careful.

And cautious.

As she'd like to believe

herself

It's a defense.

It's almost a reflex now.

For those that have happened in the past

Made her

 Who she is

And who she is not

Now.

Everyone ought to tell her directly--

Maybe through flourishing words
Maybe through straightforward words

And, then, extravagant gestures.

For she no longer trusts

What she thinks
She perceives.

For the past has taught her to.

She still doubts words.

But she gains greater anxiety
In deciphering gestures.

Together though,

Words

And actions,

There is her assurance.

And then there she might find

In herself,

Trust

And

Feeling.

Again.

And then he might find her as well.

Cold December Nights Again

Stat made my last school day of 2010 a living hell. I definitely have to take the next lectures seriously. That was one bad thing today. Other bad things for today: forgetting my purse at home, not having an umbrella, not having cellphone credits, not having enough money when I want to and need to buy things (shoes, a Samsung Wave, clothes, healthcare products, an A6 Audi), parents who won't call, superduper-crowded malls, trying-hard tweens, jejes, and very long lines at the terminal! And I missed the first night of Simbang Gabi. I fail :( Seriously, I am at my wits end here!

Thank God for the lovely CDC practicumers who made the rainy afternoon so fun with their banats and their groovy playlist! Their stories about the children and the entire practicum experience makes me so excited about practicum! Haha! I really really love FLCD :>

The song above is one of the "groovy" songs we sang and danced to this afternoon. I was a bit thrown aback when I first heard/ saw this two weeks ago. It looks like and sounds like those KPop songs! I found it funny, but then it just grew on me as people around began singing (with actions!) and playing it more and more. And now, I actually find it nice! Super LSS! Maybe it's also because I've grown a little appreciation towards KPop, thanks to Jang Geun Suk and He's Beautiful. Haha! :P

Merry Christmas na! Away with the bad vibes! Embrace the good vibes! ;D