Your Lipstick Stains

It's good to know somebody thinks you're beautiful.


Gumaganda ka a :)

Thanks for the ego booster, (ex) classmate! Kahit na 'di tayo close haha!

Freedom

Tap feet.
A subtle
An exaggerated
Nod of the head
Knees bent
To pray to a god known as
Freedom.

In red lights
Yellow lights
Green lights
And white blinking ones.

I write as I search

To bow down one's head to pray but to someone.

To shout
To sing
To express
Not a fear
Not a frown
But only a voice.

A voice
To echo
In the room
In your ear
In your memory.

We expect
And anticipate
What is
Hopeless
Implausible.

In the here.
The sometime.
In forever.

Written Feb 12 2010. Somewhere while alone pretending to text someone when in fact I was writing this. It's wonderful to write things in places you never thought you could ever concentrate. And while you were kinda dizzy, too. Ha.

04:16:28pm

But when it hurts
Though you try to hide it
It shows

Your eyes give away
Even the emotions you hide
In the
Deepest
In the
Most inside
You got

Maybe it's
NOT
Worth
All this wait
All this
Confusion.

Written Feb 14 2010. I found this in my phone's drafts folder. A lot more other stuff in there. Wow.

Excuse me, does Fa Mulan live here?

For me, Mulan would probably be the funniest, and yet the most touching Disney movie of all time. Well, I do really love Aladdin, but Mulan's just... different. Well, it's not just 'cause it's set in China--very beautiful, culaturally-rich China-- but also 'cause its songs are very amusing and sing-able! I'll Make a Man Out of You, A Girl Worth Fighting For, Reflection :)

And, I did say Aladdin would probably be the most handsome and most sensible Disney prince. Okay, next to Prince Eric, the hottest of them all btw,--hello, muscles+mass+bad boy side+momomoney! But hey, who could ever resist a man in uniform, more specifically, Li Shang? Haha! Check this out, BTW. Hm, I've noticed that men in uniform are growing on me. And random thought, I'm thinking of going to Med School 'cause the men are pretty handsome as well. Ha :P

Back to Mulan, one of the cutest parts would probably be this:

Haha I love the Emperor :">


If I were given the chance to live a life of a Disney princess, I'd choose Mulan's :) Men girl din kasi siya? HAHA! I can watch this over and over and over and over and over again! :"> How about you, what is your favorite Disney movie? :)


PS.

Mulan (to Li Shang): Would you like to stay for dinner?
Grandma (shouting from a distance): Would you like to stay forever?

HAHA! Relatives :P

I FEEL SO

DIS
            CON
        NEC
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Must You Make Me Laugh So Much

I do not know what to say.

Never Sing Of love If It Does Not Exist

My parents ask me why the hell I stay too long in front of the computer, typing away in pages like this, when I have other papers to do for school. Well, I guess it's about letting out whatever there is to let out. To let go of words I dare not speak to people. To just let out. And maybe to let go. Even if it takes away at least 15 minutes of my life.


My sisters ask why I keep on blogging here when there are, at most, 2 people who read each of my blog posts after all. Well, I'd like them to know that while others may do it to please people, to inform them, or just to brag, well, I blog for the sake of me. Not to please. Not to inform. Just to let it out. Hopefully, to let it go. Or, in some cases, to hold on to it.

I ask myself why I keep on blogging when I can just let everything out through talking to my best friend or to my sisters. Well, there is something concrete, if I may put it that way, about words that are written down for all the world to see, instead of just telling it to someone. I am not sure. But putting it down on paper, or well, in this case, putting it up on this blog, makes things, ideas, and emotions, less vague, more "tangible", and relatively more comprehensible--to me, that is. Maybe it's because ,when I write these things, I can organize them inside me even more. Sometimes talking leads me to different conclusions and I end up contradicting myself. Well, here, that happens less of the time. Haha.

O well. Maybe it's this. By putting words here, what is very intangible and fleeting becomes concrete, even in just a period, or even just a moment. By putting down everything here, they become more engraved in my memory. And, if ever I forget and they become, once again, intangibles, I could remember, take them back, review, look back. I do not know.

These lines appear in my favorite book:

"It is always raining in my head. The closest thing I have to order is the way the lines are set on pages. But even those I disregard...The words just start to fall there. And I feel some satisfaction from that. I've nver written for myself. And I've never written for anyone else. I write for the release of it. For finding out what will be there when I am done."

And then by the end of that part/ chapter/ poem/ essay...

"We are so used to releasing words. We don't know what to do with them if they stay... I'm talking about what happens when they stay with us. No matter how many times we let them go, they come back. The words that matter always stay."

Some of these things may support what I've written earlier, some may negate it. But who cares? After all, only I could fully understand this. Unless you'd borrow my brain for a while. Well, this is self-centered--and biased!--again. Haha. Why, in your opinion, do I write? And, you, why do you write?

Do You Know You?

Maybe you're supposed to forget.

But Everyday I'm Learning

Things I watch/ listen to when there's nothing else on TV but live masses and hard-core Semana Santa films.

PS. It was a good day today. Great news received! Hello, ILC next week ;)